Colic & Postpartum depression

[ALM]

Hey everyone. I gave birth on March 17, 2013 to a beautiful baby boy.  He is almost 8 months old now. He is finally just starting to sleep
longer stretches at night and not really waking during the night anymore. For the first 4 months of his life he had very bad colic. 
I feel like I was really in survival mode so much so that I didn't really enjoy caring for him the way I feel I should have. Even now,
I feel so depressed all the time and know I had very bad PPD but thought that by now, im sleeping more, and getting used to becoming a first time
mom I should be less overwhelmed. He just started crawling and I can barely change his diaper bc he is constantly moving and never sits still. I feel
like I barely still get breaks with him during the day. I feel like my postpartum depression is still lingering and I don't know if its a lot because of the colic
he had for 4 months he would basically scream all the time. I talk to other mothers and their so happy with their babies and tell me they never felt
"the baby blues or even depressed" or overwhelmed. It makes me feel so alone that im a bad mom because I am not happy all the time. I should be because I
have a beautiful, healthy, happy baby boy now. Do any of you other moms feel this way?

[raylene58]

You are not alone, see my other posts. I dealt with colic and hes just now getting better. I am back at work now and I still am not 100 percent. I was depressed, felt sad, alone, trapped, exhausted, all the above. I feel bad still for feeling bad and just look forward to when He can talk and walk and I know what he needs. This too will pass! Are you at home all day? That was my problem and I was isolated, didnt have family or friends to break up my day, all that makes a diffrence. Hang in there! I think being a mom will always be hard at any age.

[ALM]

Raylene, yes im home alone all the time with him bc I have been looking for a job now for MONTHS. I am supposed to hear back today from a job I just had a working interview at. I want so bad to get to work more. I hate staying home with him every single day of the week and every weekend. I need adult interaction. Ive done both, when he was 6 weeks old, I worked full time for 2 months til he was 3 months old and THIS was when he had colic bad. I was utterly exhausted but less depressed bc I had other people to talk to. it makes such a difference not being couped up in the house. But now I have no choice bc I cant find a job. I just hope soon I can find a job and get out of the house more. Thanks for your support and letting me know im not alone. I feel like us who have to suffer through colic is just that much more stressful dealing with motherhood, its no wonder some of us get PPD after the colic subsides

[raylene58]

Any word on the job? I know how you feel. I have been back to work 2 weeks and I feel 90 percent better. Talking to others, feeling important, gives me confidence to be a better mom at home. He is still kinda fussy in the day, but it gets less and less eventually, hopefully by 4 months he will be good .Hang in there. Do you have support? A pertner?

[Amber Lorraine]

Raylene no i didn't find a permanent job per say but did find temp work here and there which has helped me somewhat boost my confidence and be a better mom at home too. getting out and talking with people has been a godsend to me. he is 8 months old now. he is a LOT less fussy than he used to be. its def a big transition from being no mom to being a mom